Saturday, August 31, 2013


the feeling of just pack my bags, open the door and just leave this house. well, it just all i wanted. everyday getting scolded. you think being compared is fun? being called useless,sundal,stupid isn't what i want mom. being push away,making me embarrassed in front of the public isn't what i want step-dad. being throw with heavy stuff on my face and bruises wasn't what i wanted,bro. fuck this. hp kau nak amek,freedom kau nak amek. smue kau nak. im sick and tired of this. thats why im being wild. it all started from you guys. Being TOO strict isn't good,mom. cause that will lead me becoming a liar. seriously mama. well, basically i'm not looking forward for those good foods we eat, big house we stay. i'm finding what is the meaning of family that i've been searching for the past 7 years. hais :"\ goodnight blog.

Friday, August 30, 2013


well, i am just gonna throw it all here ok? beb, i don't how to make you happy. i swear i don't. well, obviously i hate the fact that you are so jealous. but i also can't deny that im also jealous whenever i see that some other random girls can make you cheer up and make you happy. if only you know what is happening in my family.. hais beb. i really wanted us again. idky we are like this again. im fucking stress bithc. and i know you're have been trying your best in our friendship kan
? sorry means nothing in our friendship already.idk what to say. but literally, i cried ALOT. i mean ALOT in our friendship beb. aku sayang kau MAB. sorry for replying your msg really late. i got a fight with my mom again. and i just went out the house just like that. and im totally down now. if only you were here..... i just want be the best for you. i want make you happy. i want to be there when you need me. i want to be the best girl bestfriend for you. but i just cant. aku sayang kau beb. aku kalau boleh taknak gadoh ngan kau lagi. FUCK EVRERYTHING. i loveyou idiot :"(